où je serai dans 5 ans

city lights
like stars
they dance in the rain
drenched in the night she sits in her lonely window
looking out on the wet streets
wondering
pondering
“how did I get here?”
she lives in a sea of nameless faces
she’s just another face
pushing out on all sides
to let the person she has become out
still trying to figure out herself
she never will
but that doesn’t matter
not really
she had the whole world
welcoming her, with open arms
then she pulled a Robert Frost
chose the road less traveled
did it make her happy?
is she satisfied?
is this the life she wanted?
was it worth the tears she cried?
these things you’ll never know
she keeps her disappointment locked up
deep down
where even she can’t find it
she’s not sure if this is what she wanted
but this is what she got

ceci qui est je suis

A random jumble of colorfulness.
I feel this describes me in an odd but completely true way.
I feel I’m like a rainbow,
so many different shades and colors that come together rather nicely to
make a beautiful object.

Life holds me up.
The prospect of finding another door to open keeps me going,
keeps me moving forward.
Friends push me when I don’t want to move.
Inspiration drives me in everything I do.

Holding me back is only my self.
Silly meaningless things, loneliness, confusion.
Old Converse that are worn down by all the places I’ve been.

“Hey girl! You’re really staring to go places!”
I sure hope so.
College, graduation, saving the world!

Education is the key to reaching my goals,
well that’s what everyone tells me any way.

I am from one graduation to soon to be another.

From way too many after school activities and an outrageously large amount of music.
I am from friends and best friends.

Live keeps going, keeps moving forward, you can move with it or just get left behind.

These are the things that I am.
All is mixed together to make a human. Highs, lows, happiness and sorrow,
they are all vital in this thing we call our life